By Apsara Khulal, London UK
Dear parents, sisters and brothers,
I have been living in the UK for the last 14 years, working as a nurse for the UK National Health Services. Currently, we are living amidst the global crisis caused by the Covid-19 pandemic. I had to personally wrestle this evolving reality five weeks ago, as I got infected with this virus while working in the hospital. Unknowingly, I also transferred it to my husband.
With a lighter heart, I am telling my story as both of us have recovered from this illness. We have been very fortunate. However, the challenges, risks, and worries in our global communities still continue. The purpose of sharing my experience is with the hope that it may help you stay safe and healthy.
Let me also take this opportunity to express my best wishes to you and your loved ones on the occasion of Nepali New Year 2077 BS. With the coming of the new year, it is my sincere hope that none of you will be affected by this virus.
In the hospital where I work, some patients infected with Coronavirus were trickling in. At that time, we were not provided personal protective equipment (PPE). To limit the spread of the virus, some of the patients, who were identifiable, were placed in separate wards. I was working in the respiratory ward, where we thought no corona patients had been admitted. However, since the symptoms of Covid-19 are very similar to symptoms of respiratory illnesses, even before patients were diagnosed, staff had already been infected. I was one of them.
After my second day of work, I began to feel uneasy. I had a loss of appetite, was feeling fatigue. Then after two days I had severe headaches, high fever, coughing, difficulty breathing, and body aches. When I called the emergency line, I was informed that these were all symptoms of coronavirus and I was advised to stay in isolation. I became so disconnected from my body, unable to control it, that moving myself from where I was sitting seemed almost impossible. With no vaccines and small children at home, my mind kept on running through what to do and what not to do. What will happen now? Isolated in my room, drinking hot water with holy basil and turmeric powder and sometimes hot water with ginger, lemon and honey, a lot of reasoning and worry started in my mind.
My mind was flooded with thoughts, in what seemed like a futile attempt to find something that could help me. Something that could alleviate my suffering. Then I remembered, I am a practitioner of Siddha Mahayog meditation. For the past one and a half years, through regular meditation practice, I have already had the experience of getting rid of some of my complex health problems.
The more I thought about it, the deeper I realized that surely, the effects of this virus could be dispelled by my meditation. I repeated to myself, “I don’t need to be scared.” Thinking about this, I mustered up the courage to sit up in the same room in front of a small photo of my Gurudev (spiritual Guru) and prayed to him. While usually, I would start meditation with Sudarshan kriya, preparatory exercise for the meditation, I was in no condition to move my hands and feet. So instead, I went directly to focus on meditation.
From the very beginning of the practice, I felt there was an outflow of healing power. It was so strange that when I got up after an hour of meditation, I found my sickness to have decreased by about sixty percent. I did meditation the next day as well. From the third day onwards, I was also able to do Sudarshan kriya. After four consecutive days of meditation, my fever went away along with many other symptoms. tiredness and weakness were around for a while, but after 4/5 days I was able to get up from bed and take care of the little ones and my sick husband.
My husband, having high blood pressure, was in bed rest for about two and a half weeks with the similar symptoms. His symptoms started four days after me. It was our close friends that helped us with shopping who were living near to us. Our friends and relatives gave us much support, compassion, and sympathy during those difficult times. With Gurudev’s blessing, my husband also healed at home without being hospitalized.
The grace of Guru (guru-kripa) is unlike anything I have ever experienced before. I found there is an incredibly powerful effect that is generated from meditation associated with Guru-kripa energy. I, myself, had the direct experience of being healed. Whenever I remember the benefit Guru-kripa has had in me, I am immersed in gratitude. At my most desperate time of need, Gurudev’s kripa worked to heal me from within. I have no words to express my thankfulness. All I can do is bow from inside my heart to venerable Sadgurudev Jagadguru Mahayogi Siddhababa!
Currently in the UK, especially in the hospital in which I work, there are so many corona-infected patients, they have flooded in like a tsunami. Corona is everywhere. Despite the PPEs provided by the government and hospital management, there is no possibility of having enough. So we have to work without proper protective equipment. In this condition, there is no staff or patient that will be spared. Already 90% of my colleagues of my ward have fallen sick to the virus. We all created a group on Facebook to share our experiences, including what we were eating, how we are feeling with each other. For some of my friends there was no other option than to undergo treatment through hospitalization. Talking to colleagues who have now recovered, I found out that among them all, I was so fortunate, as I healed the fastest and most easily.
Now, even though I have to work without proper PPE, there is no fear in my heart. I am sheltered by the protective blanket of Gurudev who is always sending grace and blessings. With my meditation, I have full confidence that I will be fine. Before I go to work, I showered in turmeric water and meditate. After returning from work, I again take a turmeric shower and meditate. Then during meditation, I feel full-blown healing taking place and am thrilled with joy. My only worry is for others, I don’t want anyone to get infected because of me. For that reason, at home I stay separated from the family and do my best to avoid getting groceries. When I have no other choice, I go out wearing a mask and stay away from others.
The awful irony in this situation is that the compassionate, selfless Sadguru who is this phenomenal protective energy power-house has not been recognized by his own people in Nepal. At a time when we and the Nepali people need him the most, he is being required to remain behind bars awaiting trial on a false charge. The more I remember this, the more it brings tears to my eyes. I contemplate if God can really forgive the sinners who are causing unwarranted grief to such an innocent revered soul. One who does not want anything from others and only ever works with the sole desire for humanity’s highest well-being. In my mind the question keeps arising, perhaps we are now having to suffer the consequences of that sin. We have put Gurudev imprisoned, so case proceedings can be determined, for a crime never committed. Now, in the current context, we are all forced to remain locked up in our own homes. What a series of events. In this state of defeat for modern science, if this same question arose in the minds of all people like me, and should the injustice done to Gurudev be corrected promptly and with integrity, could God have mercy on us and help us find a way out of this disaster? It is an unbearable pain for me to see people die and suffer because of a virus in the twenty-first century. Despite being a nurse, the tears don’t stop.
In the beginning I thought Mahayog would be just like any other meditation practice, but in fact it is so very unique. My own experience has confirmed that this yog has the capacity to give our body freedom from disease. So, for those who have already learnt the technique, please do not miss it. Be sure to practice it regularly. By the power of this sadhana (spiritual practice), when I broke out this virus in four days, I have come to believe even more in the influence of this Guru-kripa powered Mahayog meditation. It is my wish that all beings of the world stay protected and safe.
To all my brothers and sisters who have not learnt this meditation, what I want to say is that, even if you get coronavirus, there is no need to panic. Be patient. Pray to the God that you believe in. If you do so with a sincere heart, then we will all be surrounded by God’s blessings. Because where the path of modern science ends, there is where you can find the support of spiritual science.
Also, please focus on what you eat and drink. Drink plenty of hot water with turmeric and holy basil as well as hot water with ginger, lemon and honey. While the virus is in your system, you are not fond of food and you lose your taste-buds. Nonetheless, consider eating food and drinking water as medicine. This is especially important as lack of food and drink can cause more severe complications. If you are unable to eat anything, start to feel dizzy, you can drink oral rehydration solution (Jeevan Jwal) or hot water with sugar and salt. Patients with high blood pressure and diabetes must be even more careful. This is one of the reasons behind the rising mortality rate in this country. A hot water steam inhalation is also very beneficial in this situation. Try to take a hot water steam inhalation in the morning and evening. If possible, and convenient, also measure for fever and blood pressure from time to time. As much as you can, do not allow the fever to exceed 38 degree centigrade. When you are having a difficult time, paracetamol can be consumed regularly at a difference of every 6 hours. If you have difficulty breathing or if the fever does not decrease, or if feel any other difficulties make sure to get an emergency medical consultation.
If you are interested in learning this Mahayog meditation, you are always welcome, you will surely benefit from it. Happy Nepalese New Year to everyone again and stay safe.